Why so many blogs?

As you may have noticed, I have had many blogs throughout my life. When I was little, I may have been hoping for fame. I wished to be a famous author, a popular blogger, and an amazing YouTuber. But now things have changed. Of course I would not mind being famous, but that's not what I'm subconsciously trying to achieve. I want to reach people. I want to tug at peoples heartstrings and have the ability to make them laugh and smile and cry. I want the ability to have these people that I can talk to, and be able to change something. When I was little I wanted to be an attention hog really, but now i just want to make a difference in someone. Just 1 .